May 6, 2011

I need your advice...




I'm so sorry I have posted in ages (over a month) and I'm afraid this post isn't going to be the most exciting. I thought I'd give you a quick update as to whats going on with me and ask for all your advice. 

So I've had an interesting month... 

I got a job, its just retail but I'm enjoying earning money and keeping busy. So far so good. 

My parents planned a trip to Sweden to visit relatives but after learning my nan is now in a home, and my "auntie" (technically not related) has become very sick I decided I would fly out for a long weekend to see them at the end of May. Perhaps this is one of the reasons I've been so stressed. 

I realised, as sad as it sounds, how little friends I have. I know tons of people in my town who I have the odd chat with etc but the amount of people who actually call me up on a regular basis, or who I could go to in a crisis is very little. Probably because most of my closest friends are travelling/at university, which SUCKS!

Random but true; stayed at my friends house after a few drinks in town and woke up with a swollen face, literally looked like I'd been punched!! Thank god it went down after two or three days!! 

To top it off I was kicked out of college!! Most of you know since last September I've been studying Journalism at a local college, a course which gets students into university. I'm going to be honest and admit I've been struggling with the course, mainly due to a build up of personal problems; but I persevered and kept up with most of my work, got good marks on all my written coursework and a distinction in my exam. Despite this my lecturer thought I was emotionally struggling far too much to be able to complete the course, so she pointed out that it might be best if I did not continue (just over a month before the course finishes). 

After many conversations between my parents, myself, her and other staff members I was basically told I wouldn't be allowed back. Although, in all honestly I didn't always enjoy the course, I clashed with my lecturer and I definitely was extremely stressed, I am absolutely gutted! I got into all the universities I wanted to go to, but will now not be allowed in, because I can't finish the course. I am also left feeling useless, unfulfilled and bored! I am a very ambitious person and now I am out of control and aimless. 

Seriously though, what do I do with myself now? Work in retail forever? There is absolutely nothing wrong with that but its not for me and I absolutely loved writing. I also love being in education, I actually like writing essays (Loser). I just don't know what to do, I have literally not been this depressed for two years! Help! 

To finish of just a quick FOTN from the over week... gotta put some makeup in this post somewhere ;) Stylish picture I think you will agree...


Witch Skin Clearing Primer
Rimmel Instant Tan (My friends, so dont know which one)
Lancome Teint Idole Foundation 01
Gosh Touch Up Concealer in 02
No.7 Skin Illuminator in Pink
NYC Colour Cheek Compact in Sutton Place Peach (Contouring)
Rimmel Stay Matte Powder in Translucent
The Body Shop e/s in Taupe (Brows)
Rimmel Matt e/s in Cocoa (Brows + Crease)
Stila e/s in Starlight and (Lid and inner corner)
Maybelline Gel Liner (Waterline and smudged into top lash line)
Bourjois Liner Effect Mascara
Barry M Lip Gloss (The pink one?)


Nails - Barry M Pure Turquoise
Top - H&M
Skirt - New Look
Wedges - Primark

Just to clarify, I didn't go clubbing with the hat and socks on :P

Hopefully I'll get my bum in gear and start blogging again!

Speak Soon,

Onna x

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19 Comments:

At May 06, 2011 , Blogger Abby said...

Hope you sort things out, couldn't you do another course in the mean time and use the points you've already earned to make the points you need for uni?
I decided not to go to uni, but not sure what to do now.
Love your makeup xx

 
At May 06, 2011 , Blogger Hanna Elouise said...

So sorry to hear you've been having a tough time.
Have you thought about applying for an access course or a foundation course at a local university or FE college?
:)

 
At May 06, 2011 , Blogger Onna said...

@Abby thank you, I'm afraid I havent earned any ucas points from my course yet, you have to finish first :( xx

@Hanna Elouise thanks hun, the course I was on was actually an access course, they are the only college that do them and I do not think they would let me reapply xx

 
At May 06, 2011 , Blogger Julie said...

Can you try to get the decision overrided? if its just one lecturer that had an issue with you, then maybe appeal it to the college? And as for what to do, maybe work for a few months while you wor out your next move, maybe a new course? and as for writing, I adore your blog and love the way to write, so don't be gutted. while its awful that one person didn't take a shining to you, there will be plenty of others who will. hope your aunts getting better xx

 
At May 06, 2011 , Blogger Leah said...

I'm not so good with advice, but I'm sending you tons of virtual hugs and loads of empathy. Your situation sucks! I hate that you're going through this. Wow, my comment it probably not so helpful...

 
At May 06, 2011 , Blogger shanice said...

i can't wrap my head around the fact that they won't let you back with only like a month to go; how are they allowed to do that?! you could try one of those courses where you do a levels at home, i'm not sure what they're called but you'll probably find something on google :) x

 
At May 06, 2011 , Blogger manths said...

If you want to be a journalist you don't have to go to university (unless u wanted to of course) the most recognised qualification for a journalist is an NCTJ (National Certificate in the teaching of Journalism - or something along those lines)
AND of course more important than any qualification is EXPERIENCE!!! I can't stress that enough, I am a journalist for a newspaper, I went to university but when I went for my job interview the editor wasnt all that bothered about my degree but was more interested in my portfolio I took along showing all the work experience I had done with various newspapers and magazines - they just want to see that you can write well so they know they don't have to teach you too much!
I hope this helps!!
Sam xx

 
At May 06, 2011 , Blogger Charlotte's Obsessions said...

Onna I have missed you so much on twitter, I tweeted a few times to ask if anyone knew what had happened to you! Sorry to hear about everything that has gone on for you, especially with college that just seems so unfair! xxx

 
At May 06, 2011 , Blogger ClimbingtotheMoon said...

aww sorry to hear you are having a tough time of it at the moment. One day you'll be able to look back and be proud of yourself for getting yourself through & moving on.
It seems crazy to me that they would kick you out one month before its due to finish - could you maybe finish it at home or something?
Everything happens for a reason just remember that :o) x

http://mystyledefine.blogspot.com/

 
At May 06, 2011 , Blogger Sarah said...

awww onna :( this is terrible!! i've been through a simular situation regarding the education bit. i was in my last year at sixth form and i became ill in november and my teachers thought it was best for me to come back the following september so i was recovering from my illness came back to school but had a quite a few days off because i was still ill and around the simular time again the teachers decided it was best for me to stop school. it was horrid having to quit twice and i still feel like such a failure. so i completly know how you feel. its awful!!! hope you can keep your chin up. sarah xxx

 
At May 06, 2011 , Blogger Laura said...

Hi Onna, I wanted to leave a comment because a) you are so beautiful and b) you really shouldn't stress about the job/life/career situation.

That college wasn't right. I am a huge believer in the notion that everything happens for a reason - so be kind to yourself and just refocus.

As someone said you can always just do the NCTJ part time...that's all any entry editorial jobs ever want anyway because its completely skill based.

If you want to do a more academic course then don't rule out something like the University of London external BA's or the Open University. Work alongside it and you will have cash and your education sorted.

But there is no rush. You are young. (I sound so old when I say that! :) ) but it's true - there is no rush. Don't worry about it or stress so much. There are always so many options that may well end up to suit you a lot better than that course - or any of the uni's you applied to.

That's my advice anyway :)

xx

 
At May 06, 2011 , Blogger Steph0188 said...

oh hunny!
First off, try not to worry about anything & I know you don't believe in the fate crap- but I honestly do, and things will become right.
You are still so young, and can still do so so much. Having a job is great, don't throw that away, not yet anyway- it will help you with a lot of things.
Maybe try the practical approach, get work experience at places you'd like to work. Local newspapers etc.
things will turn out right, theres no point jumping into a new venture when you're still going to be just as stressed xx

 
At May 07, 2011 , Blogger Kathy said...

I am truely so sorry for you!
I know it must feel like a punch in the face when you are already struggling and then something like this happens,but please dont take it too serious.
I know that I always do,and thats when you get into this circle where you feel like everythings bad and worthless...
Dont let it get to you.I realized things that are meant to happen,will eventually.
And if writing is what you love and want to do in your life,than do everything you can to pursue your dream.
You dont need a lot of friends either,it's enough to have the one's who love you around..I know that in the times when I used to be surrounded by loads of "friends",I felt the loneliest.
I never commented on your blog before, but I always felt related to the things you wrote ,so I felt that I just had to comment on this post to tell you you're not alone with your problems.We're here to listen ;)
xx

 
At May 07, 2011 , Blogger Alison said...

Aw hun, sorry things aren't going so good for you just now. I'd just take a bit of time to chill out and do something for yourself and then maybe you could start doing freelance writing? Or start off doing some writing for no fee just so you can get a bit of a portfolio behind you?

 
At May 08, 2011 , Blogger *Peonies and lilies* said...

You poor thing, I can't believe they kicked you out one month before the course finished. Can you appeal the decision or do another course? I really hope everything works out for you x

 
At May 08, 2011 , Blogger Onna said...

thank you to every one of you that has left a comment, you have all been so sympathetic and amazing!! Keeping my chin and and keeping working!! Will keep you all updated with what road I decide to go down xx

 
At May 08, 2011 , Blogger Computergirl said...

Just read this. That sounds like such a stress. However onwards and upwards. Lots more routes and paths. Plus all the top people in their field have got thrown off courses, or banned from the thing they love. Just keep going, prove that silly lecturer wrong. You should speak to the head of the college though. If you have paid your fees you should be able to complete the course.
Good luck honey, chin up and use the experience xx

 
At May 08, 2011 , Blogger Caroline said...

Gosh this sounds awful, can't believe they would kick you out when you've nearly completed the course! Don't give up, surely this course isn't the only path to university? Even if you get delayed by a year or two I'm sure you'll get where you want to be eventually. You won't be stuck in retail forever. Try applying for tons of work placements as experience will be worth a lot more in journalism than a formal degree. Hope everything works out for you, missed reading your tweets & blog posts xx

 
At May 10, 2011 , Blogger FromGemWithLove said...

Oh hun what a terrible shame, why don't you try the open university or something, you can do it at home and still do your job aswell. Worth a shot xxx

 

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Onna's Little Blog: I need your advice...

I need your advice...




I'm so sorry I have posted in ages (over a month) and I'm afraid this post isn't going to be the most exciting. I thought I'd give you a quick update as to whats going on with me and ask for all your advice. 

So I've had an interesting month... 

I got a job, its just retail but I'm enjoying earning money and keeping busy. So far so good. 

My parents planned a trip to Sweden to visit relatives but after learning my nan is now in a home, and my "auntie" (technically not related) has become very sick I decided I would fly out for a long weekend to see them at the end of May. Perhaps this is one of the reasons I've been so stressed. 

I realised, as sad as it sounds, how little friends I have. I know tons of people in my town who I have the odd chat with etc but the amount of people who actually call me up on a regular basis, or who I could go to in a crisis is very little. Probably because most of my closest friends are travelling/at university, which SUCKS!

Random but true; stayed at my friends house after a few drinks in town and woke up with a swollen face, literally looked like I'd been punched!! Thank god it went down after two or three days!! 

To top it off I was kicked out of college!! Most of you know since last September I've been studying Journalism at a local college, a course which gets students into university. I'm going to be honest and admit I've been struggling with the course, mainly due to a build up of personal problems; but I persevered and kept up with most of my work, got good marks on all my written coursework and a distinction in my exam. Despite this my lecturer thought I was emotionally struggling far too much to be able to complete the course, so she pointed out that it might be best if I did not continue (just over a month before the course finishes). 

After many conversations between my parents, myself, her and other staff members I was basically told I wouldn't be allowed back. Although, in all honestly I didn't always enjoy the course, I clashed with my lecturer and I definitely was extremely stressed, I am absolutely gutted! I got into all the universities I wanted to go to, but will now not be allowed in, because I can't finish the course. I am also left feeling useless, unfulfilled and bored! I am a very ambitious person and now I am out of control and aimless. 

Seriously though, what do I do with myself now? Work in retail forever? There is absolutely nothing wrong with that but its not for me and I absolutely loved writing. I also love being in education, I actually like writing essays (Loser). I just don't know what to do, I have literally not been this depressed for two years! Help! 

To finish of just a quick FOTN from the over week... gotta put some makeup in this post somewhere ;) Stylish picture I think you will agree...


Witch Skin Clearing Primer
Rimmel Instant Tan (My friends, so dont know which one)
Lancome Teint Idole Foundation 01
Gosh Touch Up Concealer in 02
No.7 Skin Illuminator in Pink
NYC Colour Cheek Compact in Sutton Place Peach (Contouring)
Rimmel Stay Matte Powder in Translucent
The Body Shop e/s in Taupe (Brows)
Rimmel Matt e/s in Cocoa (Brows + Crease)
Stila e/s in Starlight and (Lid and inner corner)
Maybelline Gel Liner (Waterline and smudged into top lash line)
Bourjois Liner Effect Mascara
Barry M Lip Gloss (The pink one?)


Nails - Barry M Pure Turquoise
Top - H&M
Skirt - New Look
Wedges - Primark

Just to clarify, I didn't go clubbing with the hat and socks on :P

Hopefully I'll get my bum in gear and start blogging again!

Speak Soon,

Onna x

Labels: ,

Onna's Little Blog: I need your advice...

I need your advice...




I'm so sorry I have posted in ages (over a month) and I'm afraid this post isn't going to be the most exciting. I thought I'd give you a quick update as to whats going on with me and ask for all your advice. 

So I've had an interesting month... 

I got a job, its just retail but I'm enjoying earning money and keeping busy. So far so good. 

My parents planned a trip to Sweden to visit relatives but after learning my nan is now in a home, and my "auntie" (technically not related) has become very sick I decided I would fly out for a long weekend to see them at the end of May. Perhaps this is one of the reasons I've been so stressed. 

I realised, as sad as it sounds, how little friends I have. I know tons of people in my town who I have the odd chat with etc but the amount of people who actually call me up on a regular basis, or who I could go to in a crisis is very little. Probably because most of my closest friends are travelling/at university, which SUCKS!

Random but true; stayed at my friends house after a few drinks in town and woke up with a swollen face, literally looked like I'd been punched!! Thank god it went down after two or three days!! 

To top it off I was kicked out of college!! Most of you know since last September I've been studying Journalism at a local college, a course which gets students into university. I'm going to be honest and admit I've been struggling with the course, mainly due to a build up of personal problems; but I persevered and kept up with most of my work, got good marks on all my written coursework and a distinction in my exam. Despite this my lecturer thought I was emotionally struggling far too much to be able to complete the course, so she pointed out that it might be best if I did not continue (just over a month before the course finishes). 

After many conversations between my parents, myself, her and other staff members I was basically told I wouldn't be allowed back. Although, in all honestly I didn't always enjoy the course, I clashed with my lecturer and I definitely was extremely stressed, I am absolutely gutted! I got into all the universities I wanted to go to, but will now not be allowed in, because I can't finish the course. I am also left feeling useless, unfulfilled and bored! I am a very ambitious person and now I am out of control and aimless. 

Seriously though, what do I do with myself now? Work in retail forever? There is absolutely nothing wrong with that but its not for me and I absolutely loved writing. I also love being in education, I actually like writing essays (Loser). I just don't know what to do, I have literally not been this depressed for two years! Help! 

To finish of just a quick FOTN from the over week... gotta put some makeup in this post somewhere ;) Stylish picture I think you will agree...


Witch Skin Clearing Primer
Rimmel Instant Tan (My friends, so dont know which one)
Lancome Teint Idole Foundation 01
Gosh Touch Up Concealer in 02
No.7 Skin Illuminator in Pink
NYC Colour Cheek Compact in Sutton Place Peach (Contouring)
Rimmel Stay Matte Powder in Translucent
The Body Shop e/s in Taupe (Brows)
Rimmel Matt e/s in Cocoa (Brows + Crease)
Stila e/s in Starlight and (Lid and inner corner)
Maybelline Gel Liner (Waterline and smudged into top lash line)
Bourjois Liner Effect Mascara
Barry M Lip Gloss (The pink one?)


Nails - Barry M Pure Turquoise
Top - H&M
Skirt - New Look
Wedges - Primark

Just to clarify, I didn't go clubbing with the hat and socks on :P

Hopefully I'll get my bum in gear and start blogging again!

Speak Soon,

Onna x

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